Confessions of a Not-At-All Dangerous Mind

I’m actually extremely self-conscious. Though I naturally put people at ease, I never feel that way myself. I inevitably see people as better socially capable than myself and feel as though I’ve lost ground before I even start speaking. Generally I am hyper-aware of everything I say and every reaction people have to it. I’m constantly worried that people think I’m weird or boring or ugly. I spend a lot of time obsessing over conversations I’ve had, berating myself for saying the wrong thing and making an ass of myself, even though rationally I know that my conversation partner probably didn’t even notice my imagined faux pas.